deciding

how is it that one single day plays out the way it does?
waking up, and not wanting to. deciding not to push the snooze button at all, but to get out of bed like i know i should. deciding to pay attention in class at that ungodly hour, working with my hands, folding paper after paper, and drifting off in my mind...deciding what to make for dinner.
the decision to sit on the couch to do my homework rather than at my desk. the decision to close my eyes for just a moment, only to sit up in a panic 2 hours later when i realize i have class in ten minutes.
the decision to bring my laptop to class so that i read online articles and check facebook while a buzz of discussion goes on around me.
later, another decision: to take a drive to america, the land where there is great milk and cheaper clothes. the decision to be distracted perhaps by something else rather than taking the keys out of the car before it was locked. our decision not to panic, but to ask some strangers for help and to laugh (because we're good-natured like that). the decision to pray for a quick solution to our problem rather than think about the very large knife and sketchy looking people surrounding ourselves and our car. the decision to buy the purple shirt instead of the blue one (a little less important a decision perhaps). to spend half an hour on the phone tonight, and to whisper a prayer of thanksgiving for the one on the other end. to decide to throw some clothes in the laundry, knowing it will keep me awake to wait for them.
and now...my decision to blog rather than to finish the assignment due tomorrow.
maybe some of those decisions i'll regret. maybe some will have little impact on anyone, let alone me. i know i'll remember some for a long time, and laugh. but maybe one will make all the difference in the world.
i guess we'll see, eh?